Two weeks ago I started my inpatient rotation for my PT degree. I do not mind sharing that it is taking a toll on me physically and mentally. I have been working out, but to be honest it’s been the bare minimum and my diet has not been the best. I’ve never considered myself an emotionally weak person, but I’ve been forced to question that perception in the few weeks. I have skipped workouts to veg and eat ice cream and have had a terrible time getting myself to wake up early enough to go to the gym in the morning. By the time I get to the end of the day I’m telling myself “tomorrow morning.” Today I tried reframing. My workout wasn’t going to be a task at the end of another long depressing day, it was going to be my reprieve, my chance to let out the feelings id spent the day hiding.
It worked. I finished the day and thought about going home and then told myself “you promised me you would go workout.” I went and honestly as I’m sitting here in the locker room, I feel a 100% better. I’m writing this for anyone else who needs a reframe, but mostly for me. So that I remember. My workout isn’t another burden at the end of the day. I can choose to view it as my gift to myself.
A lot of things in my life have changed since I began this site a few years back. I exited my mid 20’s, I got into and through the toughest parts of PT school, and I developed (and began conquering) an addiction. Now here I am, 29, in my last year of PT school and on my clinical rotations. I’m also a recovering alcoholic and lay practitioner of Buddhism.
One thing through all of the above that has not changed is my passion for health and wellness. Indeed that passion is part of the reason why I am still here. Having an outlet for frustration and a natural way of feeling good and being in control of my body has been a lifesaver, though of course there have been many other factors at work as well.
Today I stand a stronger, wiser, and hopefully kinder version of myself. I look forward to sharing that self with you. Maybe we’ll both benefit.
This is not it, but it is a milestone. I began my journey into fitness in 2009 when a person that I loved died because she did not take care of herself. I decided then, that I would run a marathon before I turned 25. I was 20 and had no idea that I could reach my goal before I turned 22. It was all over after that, I was hooked! I am now 24 and a certified running coach and personal trainer.
Every journey also has ups and downs. I was at my best point in fitness (to date) in November 2012. Much to my embarrassment I slacked off after my last marathon and have only been doing maintenance work since then. Until now that is. I am starting this blog to stay motivated, share my journey, and perhaps even pass on some information or motivation to others.